LIfe Saved....

I saved a life this morning. It was a tiny little bug that was squirming around my bathroom. Normally I wouldn't have thought twice about squashing it. I have been training my boys, even little Isaiah, not to be afraid of bugs and just stomp on it. This is what men do!

But today I was watching the little bug in our bathroom. He began to squirm as soon as I turned the light on as if he knew what was coming next. I watched him wiggle around to find a safe place but he was moving a millimeter per every 5 seconds. He had no chance. My first thought was to pick something up that I can smash it with. But as I began to watch that hideous looking thing squirm I began to wonder what sin looks like in God's eyes. To someone so pure and perfect every imperfection, every rebellion must seem so grotesque. What prompted Him to not crush us? What moved Him to send His only begotten Son to not squash the sinner but to squash the sin in us? Then I had a thought. Maybe I'll let this one go today. I'll save his life and place him outside of my house instead. I began to look for a piece of paper to pick it up but couldn't find anything. So the next thought was, "this is silly, I should just squash him". I wrestled to force myself to not squash him at that moment. Why not? It's just a bug. Who would call me cruel or unjust if I squashed this thing. Who would say that I'm gentle and loving if I didn't squash him and placed him outside. What did it matter one way or another. It was just a bug. In other words, I wasted a minute of my life because of this dumb, grotesque looking creature. I finally found something to pick it up with and then proceeded to place it outside. It had no idea what just happened, the thoughts that went through my mind that lead to his life being spared. All it knows is that it did not die today.

His love is amazing. WHY?? Why did He look on us with compassion? Why did He plan to inflict His Son to save us? What thoughts went through His mind that would cause Him to do such a thing? I may never fully understand His thoughts but I do understand that I live today. I live because He chose not to crush me. He sent His son as the blood sacrifice for my sins and sprinkled me clean. He is the high priest where I find my refuge. He is the curtain that lead me to the throne of grace. He is my Savior and closest confidant. He is beyond words....